I've calmed down about my ex-friend now. Well, my support worker said that he's not well, and my mother said you should never have wasted your time with him anyway. Either way it's his problem not mine, and I will make sure it is never my problem again. You win some, you loose some. The older I get the less friends I have. The older I get the grouchier, less tolerant, less sympathetic I get. I suppose I used up all my sympathy these past few years in the psychiatric unit, there's only so many truly horrific things people can tell you before it stops affecting you.
The house across the road has had their upstairs light on all night for about 5 nights running now, it's really odd if you ask me. Next door think their criminals, well, next door also said the street is full of criminals and perverts. There's this one guy who's always coming back and forth in his white car, and I'm sure he must be a drug dealer or something, you know these are big houses, how can he afford it if he's not dealing drugs or pimping? Anyway, he's always looking up at my window where I sit typing every time he goes past. It's got to the point where it no longer creeps me out, it's just mildly irritating.
Ok, back to the creepy house across the road, so now they've put on thier hallway light leading from the door to god knows where, probably the room they grow marijuana in, and it's not working properly, it keeps going on and off and I can see it in the corner of my eye and it's really really irritating. Or maybe they're trying to communicate to me? Sorry mate, I didn't live in the stone ages.
Well, I might have if reincarnation actually happens. I'm not too fond of the idea of reincarnation, in the words of Bender from Futurama: If I knew there was a whole other life after this one I'd kill myself now. That goes for everything really: heaven, hell, even if say, because we're all made up supposedly of particals and atoms, you'd think after we died we'd become something else. Damon was saying what if oxygen is actually a way of aliens dumbing us down? Which is why, in his theory, babies come out of the womb screaming, because they're like 'No! I want to be aware! I don't want to breathe this deadly oxygen! No!-No!- ahh, hmm who's this woman looking down at me?' and then after we die our spirits go up with the aliens and we'd be like 'Oh my god! I feel so much more aware now! There's no more oxygen-what a relief!'

Ok, so in reference to the title of my post, I just watched another laugh-a-minute, 'Carrie'. I'm not usually one for horror, but I love Stephen King, It is one of my favourite books, too bad the movie was more to be laughed at. But Stephen King is the most amazing writer I've come across. The way his stories come together, all the different points of views, giving even the smallest of characters history, background. He's just fantastic.
I did go to read Carrie but at the time I wasn't well so I put it down and never picked it back up. So these are my thoughts on it: Those bastards deserved it, I mean, Carrie obviously wasn't right in the head, but you can blame her mother for that, her mother's a complete and utter nutjob and should have been reported to child services years ago. You know, it's bad enough that you have to bleed from a sensitive area once a month without your mother preaching the bible at you and telling you it's your fault for being an evil woman with evil thoughts. Give her a fucking break, it's God's fault if you asked me, why the hell did God create all this anyway [saying that there is a God, which I believe false], I mean really what was he trying to achieve? He's just fucking bored and playing a game with you woman, get over yourself and if you can't commit suicide. So yeah, everyone dying was right, they deserved it for hurting her that badly.
I used to be really against punishment of sorts, death penalty, an eye for an eye. It's not that I'm really for it now, it's just I don't really like humanity, and the more humans die the better. I've seen what humans do to other humans, and things which I haven't seen myself I've read or watched. I am sick to death of all this suffering, and really, it'd be best if we all just died.
I don't discriminate
I'm sorry, but that's my opinion on the matter. I think I'm entitled to that.
Getting to the main point of the title, Carrie's mother says to her before she goes to the prom, she's in a real state, and it's upsetting to watch, she's scared, 'Don't go! They'll all laugh at you!' I'm not sure why but this particular scene/line stuck out from the rest of the movie. I guess, when it came down to it, Carries mother was trying to protect her, she was doing it in the completely wrong way, but she was, she loved Carrie, and didn't want Carrie to get hurt. It was just such a simple line from someone up until then, had really to me been the villain, emotionless. It made her vulnerable. It made me sad.

Right, I swear to god, if they don't turn that light off I'm going to throw my ashtray at their window. Hmm, maybe not a good idea, if they really are criminals they might have me shot, in fact they might just beat me to death now with a bludgeon. Actually that sounds like fun, more exciting than the rest of the day has been anyway ^-^

Over and out.